setengah 8 sih jadwal kuliahnya, aku udah ngebekel nasi sama beli lauk buat dimakan siangan, tapi yaah pas di kampus lihat indah jualan baling-baling (kue kesukaan aku) gak jadi deh niat OCD nya, apalagi siwi bawa brownies ya udah makin mantep gajadi, so iam eating the brownies one, and continue eating the bulang-baling cake, and continue eating my breakfast, and at the time, i feel so over eating, i came to toilet, wanna throw up all these food, but i cannot do it, so i back to my classroom, and the leccturer get in my class, and we've studying about 2 hours, and i start eat (again!) BIG DOUGHNAT, and i search an artikel about how to vomitting, and i find one, use warm water with big salt, and swallow it fast, and use your finger, and i talk with my friend to ask her, how to do vomitting. my friend, Nila told me the some as the articel it was about use salt. so i go to canteen and buy 2 'mendoan's and i eat eat my flat. and do you know what i eat 2 glass of water, and fill my glass with water, add some salt, come to bathroom, and used to vomitting again. and it was work, and the very disgusting thing, i vomitting on bathroom's floor and it was difficult to throw it away, and i used all my salt water and used so many vomit come out. after that i so disgusting see food, i see everynice, sweet food will be disgusting like my vomit like. the night before i was searching about bulimia articel and find how to vomitting.
so after that i drink lot water to forget my vomit, and 2nd time icome to my flat i eat rice with fiss and vegetables, yes, i can't skip vegetable in a day. so i eat it and come to campus to joining my lecturer, and these day i eat doughnat again, and 2 cupcakes. i felt so greedy. at my flat i want vomit again, but i remember my body doesn't have some nutrition, and i continue eat fish with rice again and a lontong. so after write this iam not dissapointed about throwing away, couse i am eating much of food.
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